Today, Sept 10th was the day many years ago that our first born child was born.
Labor, with all of it’s ‘walking through uncharted territory’, or better said, ‘breathing through uncharted territory’ one moment at a time, is much like the days and weeks, months and years ahead! It’s all ‘uncharted territory!’ Even with the books and the resources, but God is there.
Yes, He is, even if we aren’t sure He is at times. He is gracious and compassionate and surrounds us with mercy. He doesn’t give us what we deserve. How do I know? Because on this most precious day, so many years ago, a child was born and he was handed to me…to me. He was perfectly beautiful. His eyes were open, he was alert and I will never forget this moment in all of time, but…
he looked for me, for my eyes, this brand new little guy, just birthed and swaddled – looked for me! And when our eyes met, I was amazed how alert he was.
I will never forget this moment for as long as I live, but my immediate response was, “Hi!” I was meeting an individual, a unique, one of a kind personality, created and knit together in my womb for months on end by the Creator of the Universe, and he was loaned to me! Right from the start, this amazing miracle in my arms was a gift from God.
Crazy to think that God would entrust us ‘broken vessels’ to care for His treasures, but He does. He lets us mamas and papas come to the end of ourselves over and over again in the midst of the ‘baby-toddler-schooling days-sickness-and changes, (of many varieties,) only in time to discover…God is there.
He is there, and He loves us. He is love.
God is there today, when I have to be far away from a child who’s heart has been knit to mine. God is there, yesterday today and forever and He doesn’t change. And He provides a birthday gift everyday,even when my gifts seem feeble and weak, He gives the ‘good and perfect gift’ of the Holy Spirit, to abide with us, even when we are no longer here. God gives a birthday gift, of which I pray, “O Lord, fill us everyday!”
Thank you Jesus for each of my children, but today, it’s all about my first born son. Thank you for so much beauty all wrapped up in that little bundle so many years ago, trusting him with us, for all the uncharted paths, but You gave us one thing my dear Lord, as this little present was handed to us, You give us Your Presence, presently, each and every day – so as we ‘labor’ through life with each passing day, I pray for my son, that You would keep his eyes looking, always looking for You, and on those days where, well, You know what this earth is like Lord, will You touch his precious heart and remind him, I AM here.”
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Today is New Years day. The beginning of so much. So in this past year, I would pray, and I would write what I felt God was impressing on my heart. So today, I share the post that was most read, written on Sept. 10, 2014, the day on which, many years before, my dear Chris was born: